Nothing More To Say

Its done, Its finished theres nothing more to say. I've said it all, no more no less, the time has come to say no more. Yet in the pale moons dear light, I bid farwell to one and all, and as the morning sun burns bright through my bones, through my soul, in the mist I've clothed myself and as the light melts it away, my voice will fade like morning glories, as the sun starts on its arch, I'll be no more. So I've said it all, and all I've said, no more, no less...........

They did it again



Mood: So So
Listening to: Hello again-Neil Diamond
Reading: Judge and Jury-James Patterson
Watching: A door in the floor

Back in January I wrote this:
*I have been a member since Sept. of 2005. I have been very pleased with the service and such that I have recieved and was impressed on how things where run. So in Jan. of 2006 I thought that I would put my money where my mouth is and subscribe to dARt. Now comes the problem as soon as I subscribe and they take my money, I start having problem. The biggest and most frustrating one is I can no longer edit the writtings of the poems that I have submitted after becoming a member. I have contacted dART support twice and both times they have said that there is a bug in the system.."thank you for telling use about it, we'll look into it" Well thats BS its been almost 2 weeks and nothing has been done. I was better off not being a subscriber, than I am now. I understand that there are only a few administrators and a large network. but come on, I know I am not the only one thats having this problem. No feedback except to tell me that they are looking into it. Molasses going up hill in January is quicker than the staff here. I don't think I'm asking for much just fix the bug so I can edit. I would like to submit again but I won't till I know that I can edit. COME ON PEOPLE!!!!*

Well you guessed it they 'dART' makes a change and the same problem....
just shoot me.

won't post till its fixed

oh btw I do like the change

Mood: So So
Listening to: Bat out of Hell-Meatloaf
Reading: 5th Horseman-James Patterson
Watching: Four Bothers

It’s about time that I change this damn journal of mine. Yesterday I just lost a friend, no, she didn’t die, yet I don’t know how many times I wish she would, no, yesterday she called to tell me that she wasn’t going to call me anymore. You see, I had been talking to her off and on since we broke up, I know, I know, I should have let it go way back then, but hell I am a romantic, and can’t give up that easy. Anyway, she called to tell me that she isn’t going to call again. The funny thing is, she tried started a fight, tell me all kinds of lies and trying to hurt me. Saying her new boyfriend does this to her and that to her and I never did that to her, which is bull, or saying that I took advantage of her. All of this to try and push my buttons so I would get mad and hang up so she could justify what she did, like she’s the victim, which by the way she has said more than once. She was trouble from day one, and I blame myself for ever getting involved with her in the first place, but helpless I am. She was, is an attention whore. Period. Always something going on with her, now she claims that she is the victim, fu*k that. Why can’t people just say that, “hey I fuc*ked up in the relationship and some of it is my fault” WITHOUT THE BUT. You all know what I am talking about. It usually goes something like this: “Yea, I was wrong, BUT you did this or you did that.” BULLSH*T, I know I did sh*t wrong, I know I did, and I take responsibility for that, but in no way did I every take advantage of her. I wish people would just take responsibility for what they did and not play the victim. Now I am just plain mad at her and at all of my relationships You know that if people would stand up and take responsibility for their actions then maybe this world would be better off. I HATE LIARS. I hate them, I hate them, I hate them. and to tell you how I really feel, I hate liars. You know I started this journal out feeling kind of sad that I lost a friend and now I am pissed off at her and liars in general. So I guess that’s one of the steps in healing. God, what’s wrong with me?.....................

Mood: upset
Listening to: Fool in the Rain-Led Zipplin

You know what really pisses me off is when you break up with someone and you think its over. You take what is left of your heart and glue the pieces back together and you then sew the holes and try and wash the stains out of your soul. You do this all the time just wanting to die. Dark black clouds all around you. You days filled with blackness. Once you have a some what functioning heart and your soul is put back together, that person, your ex waltz right back into your life like they didn't do any wrong, wanting to be your friend, all along having the boyfriend that they cheated on you in tow. They say shit (in that sickly sweet voice) like ..oh we have been through so much, and I could always talk to you, or you where the best I every had. Yet all the time slowly twisting that Knife they stuck in your back. What the f..., do they want, can someone tell me. I mean I know I should turn and run but its like I'm on a string. I just can't turn my feelings off that I have for her. She comes in pulls the string then bam rips my lungs out. What the f...,now I start all over again, mending my heart and sewing my soul back together. Soon there will be nothing left to fix and I will become one of the walking dead. So tell me what is wrong with those people. Its much better to just go don't come back and toy with me. Oh never mind..I give up..Its just not worth it........




PS..

Thanks dawn for letting me vent...... you are the best and you are lucky and thanks for being my friend..really i mean that...I still would like to buy you dinner...

Mood: angry
Listening to: Hot Dog-Led Zipplin

I have been a member since Sept. of 2005. I have been very pleased with the service and such that I have recieved and was impressed on how things where run. So in Jan. of 2006 I thought that I would put my money where my mouth is and subscribe to dARt. Now comes the problem as soon as I subscribe and they take my money, I start having problem. The biggest and most frustrating one is I can no longer edit the writtings of the poems that I have submitted after becoming a member. I have contacted dART support twice and both times they have said that there is a bug in the system.."thank you for telling use about it, we'll look into it" Well thats BS its been almost 2 weeks and nothing has been done. I was better of not being a subscriber, than I am now. I understand that there are only a few administrators and a large network. but come on, I know I am not the only one thats having this problem. No feedback except to tell me that they are looking into it. Molasses going up hill in January is quicker than the staff here. I don't thing I'm asking for much just fix the bug so I can edit. I would like to submit again but I won't till I know that I can edit. COME ON PEOPLE!!!!