Mood: So So
Listening to: Bat out of Hell-Meatloaf
Reading: 5th Horseman-James Patterson
Watching: Four Bothers

It’s about time that I change this damn journal of mine. Yesterday I just lost a friend, no, she didn’t die, yet I don’t know how many times I wish she would, no, yesterday she called to tell me that she wasn’t going to call me anymore. You see, I had been talking to her off and on since we broke up, I know, I know, I should have let it go way back then, but hell I am a romantic, and can’t give up that easy. Anyway, she called to tell me that she isn’t going to call again. The funny thing is, she tried started a fight, tell me all kinds of lies and trying to hurt me. Saying her new boyfriend does this to her and that to her and I never did that to her, which is bull, or saying that I took advantage of her. All of this to try and push my buttons so I would get mad and hang up so she could justify what she did, like she’s the victim, which by the way she has said more than once. She was trouble from day one, and I blame myself for ever getting involved with her in the first place, but helpless I am. She was, is an attention whore. Period. Always something going on with her, now she claims that she is the victim, fu*k that. Why can’t people just say that, “hey I fuc*ked up in the relationship and some of it is my fault” WITHOUT THE BUT. You all know what I am talking about. It usually goes something like this: “Yea, I was wrong, BUT you did this or you did that.” BULLSH*T, I know I did sh*t wrong, I know I did, and I take responsibility for that, but in no way did I every take advantage of her. I wish people would just take responsibility for what they did and not play the victim. Now I am just plain mad at her and at all of my relationships You know that if people would stand up and take responsibility for their actions then maybe this world would be better off. I HATE LIARS. I hate them, I hate them, I hate them. and to tell you how I really feel, I hate liars. You know I started this journal out feeling kind of sad that I lost a friend and now I am pissed off at her and liars in general. So I guess that’s one of the steps in healing. God, what’s wrong with me?.....................